Ok. that is all :)

I have always and forever had a traveling spirit. When I took my first international trip, to Europe, I fell in love with travel moreso than any other feeling of love I have ever had. Traveling to another world is like being another person. You have the power to take yourself out of context and live in another world. I love it.

 

Today I booked my flight to India. I am so damn nervous. But I did it.

is tomorrow.

Good god I'm freaking out.

I did this all.by.myself. All by myself. And you know what the best thing about it is? If something goes wrong, it's NO ONE'S fault but mine.

If this is the first time you're hearing about this................COME TOMORROW!

$10 admission, all to charity, and two free drinks come with!!! Heat Nightclub in Schaumburg, 10pm!

This has been the most insane week of my life thus far. But honestly, I don't even know where to start. I've had something going on every weekend this summer since May. I don't have an entire weekend off until Labor Day.

Last weekend was Sarah's bachelorette party. Crazy weekend.

This week (not including my 9-hour work day):

Monday - Two year anniversary with Zach!! I made him pizza in a heart shape with a pizza cutter that says "A Slice of Love" :) We're going to a bed and breakfast in Lake Geneva in a few weeks...he made sure to get a room with no TV ;) And he booked us a picnic dinner!!!!!! <3
Tuesday - Incubus concert with Zach and all his friends (my birthday present to him from April)
Wednesday - Study for my interview Thursday
Thursday - I interviewed Sick Puppies! Went to the show for free, interviewed the band (drummer) and then watched the show from an exclusive, private balcony with Q101 management, Capitol Records management and other important people. SO AWESOME!!!
Friday - Rehearsal + dinner for Sarah's wedding
Saturday - 10 mile run, Sarah's open house/hotel party
Sunday (tomorrow) - Sarah's wedding!

And I'm taking Monday off of work which is WELL deserved!

Whew!

I am now swimming in my size 6 capris from the Gap. SWIMMING.

Last time I checked I hadn't lost weight but that was a month ago...so I don't know. Regardless, I'm pumped!

I ran 9 MILES on Saturday! I'm training at full force - running 5-6 days a week and lifting twice. I ran a race a week ago and came in second in my age group :)

I'm on Team CARE again - Conquering Alzheimer's Running Endeavor. If you have anything to donate, please help me out. I will gladly accept $2! Anything to help with finding a cure would be an amazing help :)

http://teamcare.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=299968&supId=248532613

Chicago Marathon, here I come!

A monumental part of my life that has been with me for nearly half a decade has now passed and I can't help but question myself if I made the right decision. If what I did was right for myself AND for this part of my life itself. I think it will take a long time to get over this, like breaking up with a significant other even when you know it's right for the both of you. It still hurts just as much...in fact, leaving on calm and sedated terms almost makes it harder than if there WERE screaming. If there WERE fighting and struggle and conflict.

I just don't know.

Today I met Marcus from Vertu Lingerie and his wife, Becky, along with the modeling coach and a few potential models for the runway show at Heat Nightclub. jellymytoast  was there too; she's the reason I got involved at all anyways. She kept raving about this designer and I couldn't pass the opportunity up. I'm not tall enough to be in the show but after the model-tryouts Marcus asked me if I wanted to walk...and I declined. I actually said no. I said "I'd love to, I'd absolutely love to. But I know that you need me more in production." And he said I was right and that he, "needed me backstage." It was hard, but I know where my place is, and what I can do the best with.

After talking with them, meeting with them and discussing the details of the show, I'm amazed. This show is going to be out of this world, certainly compared to anything I've ever directed before. I'm so excited for it that I'm already thinking of what I can do for the next one; what connections I can hook us up with and what promotion I can use to market it.

If anyone is free for Valentine's Day night, I highly encourage you to come out to this event: free admission for ladies, drink specials and one hell of a show.

Vertu Lingerie

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...I LOVE YOU!

I am directing the Vertu Lingerie Fashion Show on Valentines Day and getting paid to do so! I'm also going to be teaming up with the designer for some awesome things coming up in the future.

I'm meeting with the publisher of ClubLine-Chicago magazine tomorrow. I'm already the Fashion Editor but now he wants me to get into sales/advertising for the magazine. Commi$$ion!

I'm meeting with an AMAZING venue tomorrow night for the VOP fashion show; great location, and they want to give it to us for FREE--a TWO LEVEL CLUB.

Ok that's all for now :)

Stosha moved to Berwyn. After she has her baby I'm going to bring her to all the places I can think of. I need to remember all these places! :)


Mattheson/Starved Rock
Lake Shore Drive (get off on Belmont and go by Wrigley Field)
Other fields: Soldier Field
North Michigan Avenue shopping
Michigan Avenue Bridge
Brookfield Zoo (Lincoln Park Zoo)
The Morton Arboretum
Millenium Park
Little Red School House (South Side)
Auto Show
Sears Tower/Hancock
Lou Malnatis/Gino's East/Taylor Street Pizza
Beaches
House of Blues/Metro

Any suggestions?

So it's been for ever since I've written; mostly because my commute is 40 miles each way, also because I'm busy with freelance endeavors, and also because I'm out enjoying life and not online too much :)

To summarize my last month:

• This new job is the best career move I have ever made in my life. I've never been so happy with a career-minded job, my co-workers and what I do on a daily basis. I am creating an opportunity for myself within this company that I never thought possible. The President took myself and three others out to lunch at Wildfire-yes, WILDFIRE-in order to hear suggestions on improving the company. Lots of awesome. Lots of money. Lots of happy.
• I am continually happy with Zach. I love us <3
• I am moving to Lisle (think, border of Lisle/Naperville so barely-Lisle) and will be much happier living closer to work; it'll cut my commute by at least 35 minutes.
• Starting Monday I'll be able to run every day. I know the Holidays are the worst time to start but I can't wait to get running again.
• I love my family (minus the unspeakable sister, of course).
• I love my friends.

I love life!
:D

More later...!

When Zach and I first started talking again, he was kind of involved with a girl who had a boyfriend. Well, he was VERY involved, but things were lightening up when I came into the picture. When things FIRST started happening with he and I, we had a long talk about her online, and I saved the conversation.

Why did I save it? Do I like to torture myself with the past? I don't understand.

I read it today and told him. And this is what he said:

Zach: Close it, cause I obviously made the right choice BY FAR

I am deleting that conversation.
I love Zach :)

I want to be this skinny again :(


Zach said "if you wanna be super super skinny go back on the running schedule you had during college"...that's nearly impossible. I was running 55 miles a week. Eating close to nothing. Not drinking. He says he doesn't think I look that skinny. But I know I do. I think it's more that he doesn't CARE, not that he doesn't SEE it.

Regardless. I have to start running again.

IncubusLostYear: yes, it becomes an addicting game, no matter how frustrating

Body:

Hi Rachel, We want you for DISCRETE escort/ call girl work in New York City from 11/19/08 to 12/16/08 (one month). This is totally discrete—no one will know. We have other available dates listed below.

Pay is 10,000 cash and you only have to escort Thursday to Saturday each week for the month—the rest of the time is yours for modeling!!!

One month work, no paperwork to fill out—totally DISCRETE. Great for college girls, married girls and professionals who want to keep this a SECRET and have no one like family and friends know.

Room, board and travel expenses are paid by us!

During the week, I will take non-nude modeling pictures of you in New York City for your portfolio- and we will submit these modeling photos to various agencies here in New York City.

You come here to New York City, escort only on weekends in secret, and get modeling pictures taken during the week and submitted to various New York Agencies—AND LEAVE WITH 10,000 DOLLARS for one months work!! Previous models have told their families/ husbands that they made the money modeling –and that’s it!

PLEASE EMAIL-- colinsgirls1@yahoo.com (ALSO INCLUDE YOUR MODEL MAYHEM# OR LINK TO YOUR PROFILE)


***For those of you who cannot be gone for a month we also have single weekend work (Fri-Sat) that pays 1500, all travel and expenses paid by us—we fly you here Thursday night, you work Friday and Saturday, and fly home Sunday—again you can say that you made the 1500 modeling over the weekend!


Others dates available- (you can work all the days or just the weekends in the dates below)-

09/24 to 10/21 in New York
11/6 to 11/18 in Detroit
11/19 to 12/23 in New York
Jan. 2 to Jan. 27 in New York
Jan. 28 to Feb. 10 in Detroit

I just opened a bulletin titled "Happy 9/11!". Upon opening, it contained dance music, and a picture of the towers with a plane in the middle and then a smiley face. Some band from Michigan, Death by Dancing.

I don't care if you aren't into politics or if you didn't know anyone there or not. Regardless, so many people lose their lives. I just am left speechless by the lack of heart people have.

I'm so fucking pissed off I'm shaking. Have a fucking heart, you sick fucks.

I'm debating teaching abroad in Spain for a year. I'm researching it with my International Business professor from college, along with my best friend from high school. She's in grad school for Bilingual Education. Another friend just up and moved to Utah for an elementary school teaching job. Seeing as I've done more traveling than the two, I'm more experienced in that, and I also have a degree in Spanish and have studied abroad.

But I have a boyfriend. And a family. That would make me very hesitant to leave.

RunningInReverie: if i seriously, and i really do mean this, went to spain for nine months, what would happen?
IncubusLostYear: what you mean what would happen?
RunningInReverie: with us
IncubusLostYear: id have to save a whole lot of money
RunningInReverie: :-)
IncubusLostYear: id have to visit at least twice
RunningInReverie: i love you
IncubusLostYear: i love you too

I cried. I seriously cried.

Yesterday after a long day, Zach decided to come to Oswego even though it was a haul and he had to get up and drive quite a while to school.

Before we went to bed we were watching Ace of Cakes. He was surprised that I had never heard of the company or the show. Charm City Cakes is based out of Baltimore and construct absolutely fabulous cakes. As in, I don't even know if I'd want to eat them, cakes.

I said that I wanted one for my wedding.
He asked, "What do you want me to do, call them in Baltimore and have it shipped here? I don't think they'll do that." (!)

:)

You can not, can not, trust anyone. 

My family, that is. And I mean that, in every sense of the word.

Zach and I are planning on visiting my aunt and uncle in North Carolina. They live in a GORGEOUS house. Seriously. They have a freaking WEBSITE for their HOUSE.

This is their house:

The DRIVEWAY is a half mile long. The tiny looking house on the side is a garage which also has an apartment on top!

Their porch and view from it:



ANYWAYS. Needless to say, it's beautiful, and also a work in progress. They have three golden retrievers that they show, an apple orchard in their yard...a freaking hot tub IN THEIR BATHROOM that overlooks the mountains (windows in the bathroom, the bathroom is the size of my room)...I could go on. Really, just a gorgeous property.

Okay, point of the entry.
So I'm talking to my uncle and say,
"Zach's only faults are that he doesn't drink coffee and doesn't do politics."
And he says back,
"It doesn't sound like your boyfriend has faults as you describe them, he's just not a [insert my last name here].........I guess that DOES make them faults."

LOL. God I love my family.

I have a bizillion things to talk about but just had to get this in really quick.

I wrote an article on the beautiful Claudia Fijal-by far the most genuine, sweet, and talented model I have EVER met in my ENTIRE life, HANDS DOWN. She moved to Hollywood a few months ago and her life has been nonstop success since that (well, it's been nonstop success for quite some time, but she's REALLY going places). I'm so happy for her.

The article went online today and I sent it to her and wow. What an awesome reaction. If every person I did a favor for reacted like this? I'd be doing even MORE favors.

This is a model, a 19-year-old model, already in Hollywood. Already making a name for herself. Yet, one small-page about her in a small Chicago magazine has her thrilled. The fact that it made her that happy, that I feel like I've actually DONE something for her, just, really makes me smile. I'm really happy for her :) I don't know if she realizes how much I look up to her, but she's truly an inspiration. I love the girl to death!



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